I want people to remember and recognize me. I want them to listen when I talk and remember what I have to say. So many people are happy living in the background, strive to remain unnoticed, but what’s the point of living quietly, like an extra in a movie in your own life? It’s starting to become depressing to me when people I’ve been in the same class as for months don’t know my name, I have zero relationship with any of my teachers, or people I’ve met more than one time still cant remember who I am. High school isn’t all that important, I’m fine falling out of it nameless like a whole bunch of others, but I truely don’t want to do that anywhere new I go in the future. I want to try and make more relationships, speak my mind when I have something to say, rather than only ever communicating with my absolute closest group of friends and the friends that they introduce me to. It’s going to be new because I’m used to keeping my every thoughts in my own head or only revealing them to a small few, but what’s the point of that? There are so many people I’d like to get to know, but they’re quiet like me so I never really get the chance. Everyone’s voice deserves to be heard and I reallllly want to try and start using mine.
I’m usually pretty split between wishing I had a job, and money, or worked harder at school, and being totally happy with how my life is. Right now I’m having one of those moments where I step back and I couldn’t be more pleased with how I’ve spent my time.
Any level of friendship past casual is too much for me to handle, I’m pathetic.
I can’t pull off casual and gorgeous, or trashy and hot. I feel like I really need to do myself up and dress a specific way to look really nice, and I rarely ever do that.
Okay so my friend Sophie’s dad magically got us an apartment right downtown for a MONTH this summer
AHHHHHH!!!!!!! :’] fucking squeeling and shit.
real life real time
some kid who i have spoken to once in real life and once on the internet because his status was cool just facebook chatted me. i thought it was a mistake so i didn’t say anything, he then said “hello?” and i signed off.
The boys at that school are either overly friendly or overly confident. Same thing happened last night with a kid I had never talked to, met, or heard of in my life :’] lololololololol luv them.